▼ box of fears
Sunday, March 10, 2013
you keep all your fears in you
as you lock your box of fears, with the thought of having it shoved right back into your face
not now
maybe a day later
it could be a week later
or even
a
year later
but at least, you thought, not now.
not now
not
now
to slam your throat
restricting its supply of oxygen
down your oesophagus
into the
alveoli
that was what you thought.
but they haunt you every second
when reading
cleaning
breathing
how do you explain it?
you feel like
you want to
get out
of
yourself
leaving your sad, empty being
but you can't do shit.
feeling like a sad withered flower
sad
just sad
everyone can come
get their solace
but they will never know
why
this why
that
why that
and
not this
and vice
versa
and 5 years later maybe you wouldn't even be remembered.
or you would.
but they will never reach you
ever